Yesterday, I swear I thought I was going to glare at someone and watch them burst into flames.....and that wouldn't have bothered me at all in a few cases. I had one of those mornings where nothing went quite right; while I was at home, it was fine - I could let out little yells of frustration....but then, when I left for work, it suddenly became almost unbearable to suppress my fury under a thin veneer of courtesy. For most of the day, I just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs.

I was so mystified by this black mood, 'cause even when I'm upset about something, I'm usually pretty calm about it. I don't very often get irrationally upset in such an out-of-control way. So Ikept trying to figure out what the hell was wrong.

Finally, I landed on a Perfect Shitstorm theory. On top of the family drama I've been wrestling with for months upon months; on top of the fact that year end is approaching, which means work is a crazier than usual; on top of the meteorological rollercoaster that finally seems to have settled down.....this week, my landlord came in and totally redid my bathroom, which necessitated not only strangers in my living space when I wasn't there, but having my bathroom torn up (it's still not quite done yet...le sigh).....in consequence, my whole morning routines have been thrown off, I didn't sleep well all week, I haven't been eating breakfast at home (if at all), I haven't been taking homemade lunches to work, and I skipped dinner at least three nights out of five.

Basically, I haven't been eating or sleeping well, and my pace hasn't been totally mine. Ugh.

Turns out, thoe are the kinds of things that roll together into a big snowball of DOOM, and hit me with the raging-bitch stick.

Last night, due to divine intervention, I came home, ate a nice dinner, and went to bed early. I still didn't sleep all that well, but I got up this morning and did my yoga/QiGOng for the first time since Monday, and daaaaayam does that feel better. I may even have a nice bath and give myself some nice meditation time. Or possibly get out the tequila and beat the hell out of my guitar.

I've been recording all week long, too, whenever I had the chance. Some days, it worked better than others. Several times, I'd almost finish a solid take, and my phone would ring. Oy.

But, for all that, progress is happening. Tunes will be posted soon. Yay!

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