-"Lay Me On the Water," Gavin DeGraw

I went home over the weekend, visiting the family, including the neices and my recently-escaping-the-military sister. It was good, nice to see everyone....and also exhausting.

Riding the train home, driving between parents' homes, all my brain seems able to do is come up with questions that have no easy answers, if I can come up with answers at all. What is missing in my life? Why aren't I content with what is, by all accounts, a pretty fabulous existence? Why do I want more, and what more do I want? Should I be doing something to make the world a better place, and if so - what and how? How is a person supposed to maintain sanity, and some kind of life, while pondering these giant questions? There's some sort of philosophical paradox there that I can't quite wrap my brain around - something connected to that infamous John Lennon quote...

I'm writing like a crazy woman these days - a nice change from the on-and-off writer's block that's plagued me for far too long. It's like I can't take two steps, here a song, or have a conversation without getting inspired. The Muse, fickle bitch, has clearly comeback and decided to plague me.

Thank all the gods.

Recent entries...
27 December 2007: 2007: Finis.
17 December 2007: A ruse, a rant, and a poem. It's short.
11 December 2007: Music & falling....story of my life.
08 December 2007: Briefly...ish.
29 November 2007: A poem, a rant, a lesson.